Being Made a Porn-Doll

I was made into nothing but a porn-doll. That it is not easy to write, that is never easy to know.

But it is the bitter centre of being inside indoors prostitution. It is the bitter centre of all that make a prostitute outside of other forms of male sexual violence.

Prostitution is always, has always been, and if allowed will be in the future – about connecting porn with prostitution. There is no barriers between the two.

The reality of being prostituted is that your role is for mostly men to pour all their porn sick fantasies into the living bodies of the “whores”.

This is not new – that hate and violence – is as old as men have paid for sex; as old as men have made images and created words about the sexual torturing of women and girls; as old as there been a class of women and girls named as the prostituted who can be sexually tortured without consequences for their rapists.

The only things that are new – what is new technology to spread into yet more men’s minds that this form of torture can be a form of leisure activity; what is new is they types of objects or machinery used to tortured the prostituted class; what is new is suddenly it is seen as normal and some kind of human right to have access to porn and to the prostituted.

But the prostituted class have always been allowed to drown in porn – it is so rare that anyone see their torturing, hears their screams or crying, see their dead eyes – the prostituted are only noticed when porn affects the non-prostituted.

In my time, there has always been a fight against porn – but only rarely is it from the voices of the prostituted class.

It is not the voices of women who have exited from mainstream porn; it is not the voices of the millions of prostituted women and girls who have every part of the latest porn fad put into their bodies; it is not the voices of the prostituted made to endure sadist sex while it filmed, then marketed as “amateur” porn; it is never the voices of the many prostituted girls paid to be in porn and told it may be safer than being on the street or in a brothel.

These silent voices are inside every piece of mainstream porn on every computer, they are in every porn magazines, they are blow up in every seedy sex cinema.

How many of  you would really hear the voices of the prostituted class speaking out about being inside porn? Do you really hear our voices – or will just look to see how porn effects the non-prostituted, and abandoned the prostituted class?

It is horrific to see young girls tortured in porn, young as babies or toddlers – but it is also easier than seeing grown women being tortured by and for porn.

A young child will receive your compassion, will make you have righteous fury – you will want to do something to protect the child.

But not the adult woman trapped by porn and/or prostitution.

Instead, you force yourself not to see it as sexual torture – but a freely chosen adult decision. You betray the prostituted class by refusing to see her eyes, feel her pain, imagine her terror.

By calling it a free choice – you have imprisoned the prostituted.

Porn is seen as bad if it ruins real sex for women who are not the prostituted. It ends communication, it makes men see their partners as parts of a body or plastic women, it make sex into a performance.

But this is ok when men do this to the prostituted class.

As a prostitute – it is your role to be nothing but sex parts for men to put their porn-dreams into.

Now, that is flowery language for mainly terrifying and life-threatening sex.

Most punters learn so much from porn – it is their teacher, their family, and all too often their religion.

When alone with a punter, there is always the dreadful silence as the prostitute tries to be that porn-image, tries to read his mind in order to have some kind of safety.

It is very common that punters make her invisible – he will not look her in the eye; will push her face into a wall or the bed; will do anal sex so he can’t see her face; make her do endless blow-jobs as tear at her hair.

Punters hate the prostitute’s face – it may show a terror he doesn’t want to know; it may be dead when he is imaging he is a sex-god; it may be bruised and remind him he might be a bastard in reality.

I had so much anal sex – anal rape and torture is a given for any porn-fuelled punter.

It is the ultimate in destroying the prostituted. Anal sex done to prostituted is done put as much pain as possible – without killing her.

Anal rape and torture is as old as porn and prostitution has existed.

It is always done to make the prostitute bleed, always done to make her unconscious.

Anal rape is hate and nothing else.

There has always been gang-rapes of the prostitutes – hell, in most indoors prostitution is has been made into “fine art” of many ways to gang-rape the whore for many centuries.

But each generation discovers gang-raping when it happens to the non-prostituted and is shocked. Shocked that is used as war-crime, shocked it used by urban gangs, shocked it affects decent women and girls.

But there is little pity or shock, and certainly no intervention, when gang-rapes are in porn or prostitution.

It is decided that the prostituted must be so sub-human that gang-rapes for them is just fun or their routine – so it would somehow moralistic to judge them for being in that situation.

Now, how do you twist your mind to think there exist somewhere a group of women and girls who just love the violence, the pain, the terror and the near-death experiences of being gang-raped.

Most women who make that choice to say gang-rape is ok for the prostituted class – campaign hard against sexual violence to the non-prostituted, but say it is fine if you are paid.

It is so hard not to hate you for that attitude. I try to understand – but to honest, a huge part of me is sick that it always the prostituted who have to be reasonable and understand such hateful opinions.

Think what gang-rape is – think hard, and be very honest with yourself and see if you place any human in that situation.

Being gang-raped is to have pain coming from everywhere without warning or time to block it out.

Being gang-raped is to remember somehow to keep breathing, but always have a desperation to die.

Being gang-raped is be degraded that you lose you can be is human.

Why the hell is that wrong for the non-prostituted women and girls – but can be made ok for the prostituted class?

Don’t answer that, for then I may have to hit you.

Only know gang-rapes of the prostituted has been so invisible that it is the norm in most aspects of porn and prostitution.

It is normal to see on your computer the gang-rapes in any mainstream porn of any market.

It is normal in most brothels; it is normal to make street-based prostitutes have more one punter at the time; many escorts are tricked into gang-rapes – it is the bread and butter of the sex trade, for gang rapes are highly profitable.

Are you rescuing the prostituted class from gang-rapes?

I cannot write any more – I have so much to write – this the beginning of a new beginning.

Don’t abandoned the prostituted class.